Yesterday on Facebook I made a status about how the public school in my town had their formal. It was “oh my gawd formal was last night let me default 36 different pictures of myself because I can’t decide which one my boobs and butt look the best in.” Two girls named Edna and Hayley started completely going off on me. I didn’t care whatsoever because they sucked at fighting. The status had like 5 comments every second and it was annoying me so I deleted it. Then I made one where I tagged them in it. That one got way too many comments, too, so I deleted it as well. A whole bunch of people had my side, and this girl named Hailey (a different one than the one I was fighting with) started taking their side. She used to be one of my best friends so I was like …what the fuck. So after a whole bunch of status’ being made about me, Edna had one that set me off. At first it was just fighting, but then she said, ”lol Beth why don’t you go get raped again .” I went into shock. I said “fuck you Edna. That’s a disgusting thing to say.” She commented back “why don’t you go try to commit suicide again and cut yourself because you’re ugly and worthless and fat . and like you said, nobody loves you.” A whole bunch of people were saying things like Edna why would you say that, that’s a horrible thing to say, etc. I deleted my Facebook right when she said that. I didn’t know what to do. My body was in shock. I was at a party, so it’s not like I could go cry in my room. I couldn’t help it so I started crying hysterical to my older sister in the other room. I’ve never seen her so mad. She flipped out on Edna and Edna’s excuse was: ”she said something rude to me , I’m going to defend myself . ” I didn’t talk for the rest of the night whatsoever. I haven’t even talked today. I came so close to taking my life last night, but my sister kept checking on me when I was sleeping. I still want to die. I can’t believe a sick person would say that to me. Funny thing is, the Hailey girl who used to be my friend, still took their side after what they said. And Hayley, the one fighting with me, became low on friends and begged me to be friends with her. Haha. I hope you guys see this and realize what sick fucks you are. Edna, Hayley, Hailey, I will never forgive you. Ever. If I did kill myself last night like I planned, my suicide letter would sure as hell include you in it. Would you feel fucking great then? Don’t think so. I don’t think you can understand the fucking pain I went through. Why don’t you go walk around and have a guy come try to rape you. Would you love people making fun of you for that? No. Depression is a serious fucking thing and for you to tell me to commit suicide again and cut myself-fuck you. It’s sick horrible people like you who make me feel low enough to destroy myself. I really hope you have fun in hell. I do.
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